• Flashes and screams

actuallydo.tumblr.com

2009-07-23T17:15:55Z

Goodbye livejournal. Hello tumblr^^

Babycakes

2009-07-16T06:18:37Z

Written with a pen,
Sealed with a kiss,
If you care about me, please answer me this, do you love me or do you not.
You told me once but i forgot.
So tell me now and tell me true, so i can tell you i love you.
Of all the people i ever met you are the one i wont forget.
And if i die before you do, ill go to heaven and wait for you.
If you're not there on judgement day i'l know you went the other way.
I'll risk losing my everything, and give the angels back their wings.
Just to prove my love is true, i'll go to hell to be with you.

isnt even possible to lie to yourself?

2009-06-17T20:28:53Z

Today, a little part of me grew.
Today, a little part of me learnt.
Today, I realised I was looking at something that wasn't even there.

If there were to be a human defination of naive, it would be me.

actuallydo @ 2009-06-02T20:34:00

2009-06-02T12:38:02Z

I wished i could snug up in bed and throw away the life i lead.

Joke

2009-05-09T17:38:39Z

I finally found some1 a bigger joke then k.
I laughed out loud at this one.

actuallydo @ 2009-05-01T17:07:00

2009-05-01T09:07:32Z

Stupid girl, i shouldve known

Forever? Really?

2009-04-13T17:52:41Z

I kept, kept staring at that photo.
Just like how shuwen stared at it outside cd.
But it hits me in my face, really? Isit all gonna be the same?
Will it be? Will it all be the same.

Ahh life is getting more and more complicated.
I wanna be 3 again, anybody with me.
Im tired too.

Time time time

2009-03-20T22:23:22Z

I feel the distance, still feeling it.
Thinking how long more would i feel this way, thinking if i should even feel this way.
Wished time could turn back.

Oh well, on the lighter note p has been my drive to get home early everyday.
Kuudos to that.

.

2009-03-08T09:05:50Z

I did not see myself becoming like this, not a single bit.
I dont even know me anymore.

Enough

2009-02-26T12:32:53Z

I Hate This Part - Pussycat Dolls

Down down gone

2009-02-23T20:07:29Z

As i sit here infront of the computer tonight, still half sober, back from work.
I have all the questions about life and everything down and under it.

I really wonder whether im slowly, day by day, losing the people i love.
Losing the ones so important to me, and losing the ones im holding tight to.
Im so scared that the day will come whereby the people i love forgets my existence
Forget the things we once had in common, forget the times we shared.
Forget that i loved them.
So afraid that one day, they might just slip away, even before i know it.

This sounds kinda quirk and emotional but i dont know, maybe its the alcohol.
I really dont wish to lose anyone, anyone at all.

I remembered i stumbled upon somewhere before this quote
" If nothing is forever, then i rather be nothing. At least, i am forever "

Goodbye to you my trusted friends

2009-02-22T16:00:04Z

www.100waystokillyourself.com

Paranoid

2009-02-17T18:20:11Z

Lan as usual today, but more pple then usual.
Im kinda proud to see Verleby stuck on l4d.
Niofa was so fierce today, you may never get to see her like that ever again.
Cussing every vulgar you can ever think of in the world !@#$%^&*
Thats how aggressive you get when you play this fucking game.

So me niofa whusen and verleby went down centrepoint to withdraw cash
and find macdonalds.

(Kake start here)

Then.
Once i insert my fucking card into the fucking atm, the lights, machines, everything blacked out.
So it was kinda fucking dark and fucking looks like one of l4d scene. AT THE DAMN BASEMENT
We jitao is scream and run, i was shouting " my card my card cb my card still inside"
verleby ask me " Dont panic!!!" and walk back with me to take my card when the lights when on again.
Once i took out my card, the lights when off again, so ran and laughed so fast/hard.
" Zombie zombie!" hahaha and you can hear fiona's fucking high pitched scream.
Everyone was like screaming for their life, as if a tanker was chasing us -.-

Verleby and Whusen have to hold up the metal bars at the escalator so we could 'escape.'
Is the team work man.
Hahahahahahhahahahahahahahhahahahahhahahah, like survivors.

This one, more kake then l4d gorzilallion times
Stomach cramp. Luckilly never pee in my pants.

Left4dead

2009-02-16T11:33:01Z

Yesterday i killed cansee.
Yesterday fiona was shot in the butt.
Yesterday was fun.

Yesterday i thought zombies would climb thru my window.
Konfirm tt

I believe

2009-02-10T16:23:59Z

This is, for life. (knuckles)

Dread

2009-01-22T18:39:15Z

Im gonna miss (inserts your name) terribly ):

I smell a big misunderstanding coming along

2009-01-21T16:50:29Z

When you have queries, ask me.
Snooping around is a bad bad decision.

actuallydo @ 2009-01-19T00:31:00

2009-01-18T16:32:22Z

Confused?!

12manythings

2009-01-15T06:43:10Z

Theres no point saying sorry if things just wouldnt change.
Theres no point crying when everythings gonna stay the same.
Theres no point for guilt when you know you're happier this way.
Theres no point in saying i'll change, things will be back to the same.
(when in fact, no fucking change)
No point.

At least on the 23 when i leave, i know i wouldnt have to cry again over at the aiport.
I know i've tried to spent every possible time i could with you.
What about you?
Because when you leave, i know i've tried. Have you?

Dont we deserve a little bit more of your time.
After all that we have been through together.
We have waited 6 long months for you to get back.
Have they?
We were there at the airport 6 months ago.
Are they?
We have known you for years.
Do they?
We've been through countless ups and downs together
Did they?

I just fucking dont understand.
Why are we so much less important than them.
And certainly, its disappointing.
Wait, not just disappointing.
Devasting.
After all, this is what we get from you....

?

2009-01-14T15:19:35Z

Im seriously lost.

Ridi(coo)lus

2009-01-13T17:13:37Z

Behave like your age.

(trust?)

2009-01-12T20:47:19Z

I stayed up whole night.
Searching for answers, for an enlightenment.
With a fucking E8 for maths i have no where to go.
Appeal? I seriously should tell myself to save the effort.
Save The Effort.

I.have.totally.lost.hope.in.myself.
Somebody.anybody.help.
RP whatever, as long as a poly?
Please? Engineering?

I cant believe whats happening.

actuallydo @ 2009-01-11T14:23:00

2009-01-11T06:25:13Z

Tmr's the big day.

Too long

2009-01-02T02:23:56Z

What if I told you, I had never forgetten about you. Not a single bit.

Believe

2008-12-30T04:01:40Z

I just realised that a leopard never changes its spot.
Its still the same, since ever.
And its hard to really keep by one's words, isnt it?
Its disappointing, like always.

Always.
A bunch of lies to cover a bunch of lies, nize much.
So i give up on trying, give up on hoping to see any change in you.
Wish you all the best?

Ps/ and thank you remus for ALWAYS being there
Be it on 5am or 6pm.